March 6, 2019

whispered secret love of land using me

Whispered secret love of land using me
With sincerest affection
With sincerest obsession

The cherished pest
Is also always its family of carcasses
Acknowledged as sacrifice
To desire what does not desire them
They are in me, a part of you too
Divinities the world is neglecting
As martyr or masochist

Tales of tree stumps and lizard tales
Stuck on the cat
Who is stuck in the house
Scared of man

Indulge in his pond of wine and forest of meat
Freedom finds neither but intervals between them

February 27, 2019

the caterpillars time

i want to understand why they need a fence
but i stop at the whole
understanding business

plants can legally count as a fence

i don’t think
planting bamboo will make the colonial style house less scary
for who will it be different?

why are you obsessed with Japan
i might know but,
i pause at how you call some things
nation-like

i don’t mean to get personal 
when it comes to how you think of plants
you are not an absolute

i refuse to convince
if all the birds die we will die

i want
and i exist in anger and flight
withholding some words
constipating
acting in secret
within the bamboo there will be weedy
host species for moths
the leaves will be eaten
and i will act surprised

i am every single bird on the entire planet
i am realistic
i refuse to know
i am the caterpillar the mocking bird eats
i am bird shit
i refuse to be my body

heteromeles arbutifolia
in a 24’ box
could feed coyotes, birds, and bugs,
and bugs to feed the birds and coyotes 
its toxic humans

living on the offense
by virtue of its difference from you
as long as there’s money moving
i will make plans with shrubs
i refuse to plant a garden
but i can listen to shrubs
i am a professional gardener
which sounds fake
imagine
a complex whole without order
a continuous thinghood

as long as there’s money moving
as long as i'm made to make pacts
with privately owned dirt


February 16, 2019

Is it possible to understand a fish

An angel
became a person
set the bank on fire
and wandered.
She didn’t want to leave the street behind
but it grew irrelevant.
I haven’t seen any culture outside 
since they rebuilt the area.

In the room
sexy can i barking in the background
some phones 
new leaders
and a fish smell

Can you live 
in the other day?
Is it possible to understand a fish
as separate?
What does it smell like underwater?
He gave her a stuffing and left her 
smelling like the in-between idea
“fish-smell”
Who forgot to close the door?

The other person's feelings
the days after
are one of many styles.
Is it about me
when i gag?
She thinks its cute when he gags

I fall into ideas 
and choke up on
the thing about misogyny that hates 
what's sensitive.
An issue of proximity 
from what is gentle but not weak

The tale of a dog dream is spelled in ants and colors of mountains

Dreamt I was a dog, I know I really was one
My body behind me
My head decentered
The ants in my bed
Moved away and apart with your time still inside me

Can I use these familiar symbols with unfamiliar you
Oh wow there is so much of it
Of that mountain
Time is not an integration
But an initiation forming
To communicate to ourselves
For maintenance of our ancestral soul?
It is–
Constant, infinite nostalgia
Flowing in the vernal shrimp
They are the clock of seasonal sun
I had never asked from them the time
Mine is spelled
In ants and colors of mountains
And the shape of the pondy hogwallow

That sound that it makes, a slapping pace
Panting the sun in pats
and these oak
and the sun
Welcoming one after
One froggy frogging the whole
Announcing to each other
Stories of the day
Stories of their dreams that is the wind
They are the land’s scape

Scape & space of the wind, the sibling symbols almost match!
And arrive visibly so similar they foolishly present the same...

I wanted to hear what was whispering. A mark in the air cobbled a path through the bush and excitedly, the wind screamed for us to look and by itself was with the oak. One oak and the wind dancing in it. It was as loud as the language we reached for and I could finally hear you, it is me. Here, too, making for you. And the other bodies inside me– we encounter so much, the other bodies inside me– time’s thick portal clumped, dry time cooked. Body is so sacred, hole dancing in the oak, hole the oak, makes the oak. And people too are holes, are entrances to portals. And how many are bodies as self-body centered, emotions' taken shape? What do I mean when I say me and you? And the worms I know are there but have never seen, so wet. And all the holes in the mud, holes are the bodies and the trick in spiders' spindles too. In sprite of ourselves I is other am the intangible web.

February 15, 2019

Quarrelsome precious stuffing

Costumed puffed in suits and thongs
Holding hands holding swirls in our hands
It feels like power, like unity, the spiral
The giant air celebrating around us, fleshing all over us
We are each other’s inhalation
Each other’s expansion into air
Something suffocates without that
That expansion that is made of each other
Colorful, fuzzy, like quarrelsome precious stuffing
A gift of bloody shape

February 12, 2019

godless in the mud puddle

I swept the floor
and got everything so good but forgot what I did when I was doing it
I answered the phone
in my girl voice

paws uncrossed 
stare fixed and secretly gentle
slather the morning and the meaning in dream
escalator down where
they want to destroy needy 
needy not compulsive
then some compulsive and fed
taste defining a lifestyle

I burped up something from earlier
they buried something with matter
in a kind of way
what's good about it is not the point 
godless 
in the mud puddle
or wildly angelic 
the other team is the gurgling sediment
which is great for looking at with both eyes
I keep my love in my purse


that feeling when someone else knows that optimism is scary
winking through my stomach
privately stinkie

ideas are buildings
where are you when you're headless
do bubbles crumble
have you seen the edge to the fog

everything a little

February 11, 2019

The bee is the flower's cupid

Blossoms are bees spinning into existence
Reading-eating a poem
Of honey of horny honeys
The bee is the flower's cupid
Moist for the pollen, politely
Haven’t seen you in some time

Puppy cries pupply
Play-crying that hole was all over her face
Going in circles rippling ripples
A circle indicates a presence inside
Multiple concentric circles
Indicate a presence moving out
Found for you a piece of my road
To give to you 
A piece of my road to tie us in time

In my scream i am trying to
Empathize with yours
A mountain screeching for
An open an open an open oak grove
Was the heat the tree wanted
Slapping ass in the dry gulch makeout tree
Brown angel brown angel, next to that fallen oak leaf that is the sky’s milk

For a cute purpose of the most beautiful light
Impregnated the egg, entered the yolk
Her yolk is mine too, my yolk is hers too

But do you believe in love?
And how much?

February 7, 2019

wet hill with many holes

The yolk drips and spirals
Spilling with intention the stain
Warm there on the white

Potted orchids comfortably desperate
They hang open sex gasping for
The wind that is just beyond the window oh
What the comfort wants

Listening, I am writing about the wind
Waiting for it to acknowledge me
So we can collaborate
Respectfully
How does the wind write
Itself
Into each other
Does it speak ambience outwardly
Or for its heat growing inside

Inside each others mountains
How is a stone about
Anything
Less than
Everything
Palpable as time
Like you
And me
And indifferently the most,
The hope at the end of the world
Of where things keep going
Less than everything,
Anything

Between two bodies at the park
Mother the mountain and mother the dirt are also lovers
In the middle feels so far away
forced rest between the edges
A knot does not retrieve
But ornamentally,
The leash is on the leaf
And the flies dance the sound
Into the air
Relieving self into a space to lay down in
The grass beside you
Rest feels like rain feels like rave
Mumbling where every soul is perfectly damp

I almost had forgotten
How it appeared to me in amber
The ant's corpse in my shampoo
And I rubbed into my scalp
The intention of a stain
Dead ant body shines smooth as cells
Politely, unpurely human in my hair
The ants giving body to the cannibal queen of me

February 5, 2019

a bright aporia of

Quiet sun is not the hole
Uniform in its dusty world
No nothing is more quiet
The sky under your heart

Escaped from the head
Is a bright aporia of spirit
Brittle in between
The shadow meridian
Of the righteous feast on the last day
Switching leashes, holding our own

Exploded
Like I thought they would
A long attachment
The heartbreak of the dawn, that of separation
Hitchhiking on fur and birds

How will the gift be guaranteed
To be less temporary
Than what was taken
Doubling the god fragment
The limb-loosener curse causes
Attempts to heal in multiple realms

Dispersal
On the one hand
Is language exercised for its own sake

Contemplation fades into an animal snout

February 4, 2019

Care in Order

Put animals into animals,
Care to eat care to eaten
To give the care in order
Transactional concern about the ingrained pet?
Eat our self to stay alive and believe
Cannot feel it when I am only knowing it
Unknow the mouth so I can feel the mouth
That torn part of the head
Yelling and rubbing sound into the air
A texture of the air a texture of the wind you are breathing the wind in your blood is a scream or a whispered groan
Theirs or your own, learning to make and the make is
Felt want
For once asking for more sun for the day
To twirl around the earth
Felt want like a web

February 3, 2019

Clown butter massage

What is this? A trap I set, I said she says
Woke up in the wrong house again and again
All those flies above my head

Into my face a clown butter
Cum on desire immediate a laughing desire is
Right there and wants you to believe in its power
Teamwork is me in a mirror
With whose button on my tongue
Their vision asks my pupil
And I accept, sticky sap in me
A stickiness that ensures proper play, a pressure succinctly massages
Into the softening of tension
An emoted solvent
Trickery in how my face can massage what you want it to

separate skin

everything in particular
is infected by her pocket 
kept full of weird ideas with histories
where light misses 

I am her and so are his heeled shoes
us and the people
outside
they are his remodeled apt

he said he was afraid of hurting me 
but i knew she was just worried
about Me
putting my weight on their heels 
covered in snakeskin

in my experience of continuity 
there will never be a center 
i won’t have it
but in the remodeled apt 
a manifestation of totality
i refuse to say what clean is!

i want to know things 
without needing to contain
My whole fist in your mouth
My joy in protest
coughing up your mucous
later 

i respect sex
intimately diversifying 
greasing up edges
gathering knowledge is like
an urge to be violent 
can you add grace
to white paint?

we both tried on your dress
laughing at each others bodies 

containers are psychotic!